fuckyeahdyslexia

fuckyeahdyslexia

To explain the title, I am dyslexic. Dyslexia isn't a disability of any sort. It shouldn't be considered something that is looked down upon either. Dyslexia is just another way the brain works and interprets information. I recently used the example as: You have those people who interpret information like PC's and dyslexics interpret like Apple's. I personally think dyslexia is a term that's too broad. Dyslexia could be as broad as the word cancer. Those who have dyslexia all succeed and fault in different areas, but in the end we interpret information into visual pictures. Most dyslexics have careers having do with visual jobs, for example: photography, cinematography, design, and much more. My writings, pictures, or music posted, will have nothing to do with dyslexia, but my writings, pictures, or music posted all are impacted by my dyslexia.

I don't hold much back. Here and there I'll explain situations going on in my life. Posting a picture with each post is a must. One of my biggest passions is with photography. Most of the photos posted won't be of my work, but of work that I admire, and one day would love to replicate in some way. Replicating would mean, the lighting, the model's pose, the fashion, composition, etc. In the end I hope to be able to take most of these posts, and have them edited into some sort of book(excluding the photos and music). Writing here also is my form of release. I know I don't have many followers at all, so the idea of writing for people, isn't the idea behind it all. Maybe down the road after a few years, if this could be turned into a book, then yes it could impact people. As of now the writings will only allow you to get to know me a little bit more and get inside my head. My grammar is absolutely horrible so if you have issues understanding something, then don't hesitate to e-mail me. Sxeseis@mac.com

Thanks,
Dylan

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I really haven’t written in a while. I hope a few friends that might come over, doesn’t keep me from finishing this or just deleting it in the end.
So, how are things? I have been through a lot lately. First off, I am excited about the fact that I am finally with someone. :D So far things have been great. We’ve been through our struggles already, but nothing really that’s keeping us from being with each other. I enjoy her company a lot. Our relationship is still very fresh though. We had our first date mid November. The beginning of the relationship was a battle. She was being very protective, so she wanted to stay friends. While I have been hurt too many times from being “just friends” so I pushed for a relationship. It became very emotional, but in the end, we agreed to being with each other. Ever since, we’ve only grown closer and fonder of each other. What I love the most about our relationship has been the honesty. We’ve discussed our struggles and our thoughts as we keep pushing on. I really like her! :D
On the other hand, my mother got married. I photographed the wedding, walked my mother down the isle, put together a slideshow to be shown during the ceremony, and provided the music for the reception. I was pooped out from everything. It was very stressful for me. Seeing my mom happy has meant a lot. I still have to be honest to myself, and how I feel about the whole thing. I still am a little hesitant about the whole thing. I don’t agree with everything. Only time will take those feelings away I suppose. I am not the kind of guy who blindly trust anyone that comes into my life. I also can’t always trust that my mothers judgement is good. After 27 years of marriage, your judgement isn’t too great.
As for the other parent, my father contacted me via e-mail only a few weeks ago. He offered a ticket to me for a flight to CT. My father and his brothers were putting together a mini family reunion. I told myself about 10 months ago or less, that if my dad did invite me somewhere, a trip to colorado with my brother, sister, and dad for example, that I would say yes. This pretty much was that invite. My brother and sister were not invited though. Just myself. I prayed a lot about it, I spoke to my sister about it, and wrote Trip about it. One night, I laid in my bed, and just spilt my heart out onto the notepad on my iphone. I took what I wrote and forwarded it to Trip and the sister. In the end, I finally sent to my father this on Christmas Eve.
“Dad, I appreciate the offer, I would really do anything to see the Reid family. George and Mike especially. The thing is, I’d also have to be around you. There are some problems in our relationship we need to talk about before we put ourselves amongst our families, appearing to everyone that every things fine, when it’s not.
You have had plenty of opportunities to see me here. You knew where I lived, where I worked, and yet you haven’t taken the time to seek me out. The only time when you are willing to talk or meet, is when it’s convenient for you. You never seem to go out of your way to be with us.
You haven’t sought out change, council, or even recognized that there’s a problem. You still only keep tearing down the relationship you have with your daughter. All my interactions with you for the past year or two have been about finances. You value money over people and your own family.
I appreciate the offer, but I just can’t take it right now. I don’t think it would be appropriate until we’ve addressed and sorted through these things. While I certainly haven’t given up on you or our relationship, I don’t think the time is right.
I apologize for responding on Christmas Eve, but I needed time to think and pray about my response. I hope you can do the same.”

Christmas was surprising good this year. I really wasn’t expecting much. Friday I got a lot of work done, then headed over to my house for some dinner. Andrew tried to speed things up by wrapping the turkey in foil. That didn’t work. It’s all good though, and in the end, everything tasted wonderful. We drank a lot of wine, cory, ale, luis and i. We all then headed over to the Fautsch’s for more dinner, and cigars. I had a blast! Headed back to the house to sleep. Christmas morning I talked on the phone with my special someone, and opened the gift she bought me over the phone. She’s been out of town for Christmas the be with her family. So her gift was by far my favorite. A little leather wallet for my passport. I am going on a cruise Jan 9-16th and didn’t have a holder for my passport. Now I do, and love it! :D That was the highlight of my day. Afterwards though I had a wonderful breakfast and time opening presents with my mother and andrew. Soon after, headed over the the Fautsch’s to enjoy the rest of my Christmas day with lots and lots of Mario Party!! I know, weird. It was sick how many hours of that game we played. It was very fun though. Enjoying though a lot of coffee, cheeses, chocolates, and wine, while playing. It was a great day in the end. :) I am very blessed and happy how everything turned out.
Friends are coming over now. Byes!

I really haven’t written in a while. I hope a few friends that might come over, doesn’t keep me from finishing this or just deleting it in the end.

So, how are things? I have been through a lot lately. First off, I am excited about the fact that I am finally with someone. :D So far things have been great. We’ve been through our struggles already, but nothing really that’s keeping us from being with each other. I enjoy her company a lot. Our relationship is still very fresh though. We had our first date mid November. The beginning of the relationship was a battle. She was being very protective, so she wanted to stay friends. While I have been hurt too many times from being “just friends” so I pushed for a relationship. It became very emotional, but in the end, we agreed to being with each other. Ever since, we’ve only grown closer and fonder of each other. What I love the most about our relationship has been the honesty. We’ve discussed our struggles and our thoughts as we keep pushing on. I really like her! :D

On the other hand, my mother got married. I photographed the wedding, walked my mother down the isle, put together a slideshow to be shown during the ceremony, and provided the music for the reception. I was pooped out from everything. It was very stressful for me. Seeing my mom happy has meant a lot. I still have to be honest to myself, and how I feel about the whole thing. I still am a little hesitant about the whole thing. I don’t agree with everything. Only time will take those feelings away I suppose. I am not the kind of guy who blindly trust anyone that comes into my life. I also can’t always trust that my mothers judgement is good. After 27 years of marriage, your judgement isn’t too great.

As for the other parent, my father contacted me via e-mail only a few weeks ago. He offered a ticket to me for a flight to CT. My father and his brothers were putting together a mini family reunion. I told myself about 10 months ago or less, that if my dad did invite me somewhere, a trip to colorado with my brother, sister, and dad for example, that I would say yes. This pretty much was that invite. My brother and sister were not invited though. Just myself. I prayed a lot about it, I spoke to my sister about it, and wrote Trip about it. One night, I laid in my bed, and just spilt my heart out onto the notepad on my iphone. I took what I wrote and forwarded it to Trip and the sister. In the end, I finally sent to my father this on Christmas Eve.

“Dad, I appreciate the offer, I would really do anything to see the Reid family. George and Mike especially. The thing is, I’d also have to be around you. There are some problems in our relationship we need to talk about before we put ourselves amongst our families, appearing to everyone that every things fine, when it’s not.

You have had plenty of opportunities to see me here. You knew where I lived, where I worked, and yet you haven’t taken the time to seek me out. The only time when you are willing to talk or meet, is when it’s convenient for you. You never seem to go out of your way to be with us.

You haven’t sought out change, council, or even recognized that there’s a problem. You still only keep tearing down the relationship you have with your daughter.
All my interactions with you for the past year or two have been about finances. You value money over people and your own family.

I appreciate the offer, but I just can’t take it right now. I don’t think it would be appropriate until we’ve addressed and sorted through these things. While I certainly haven’t given up on you or our relationship, I don’t think the time is right.

I apologize for responding on Christmas Eve, but I needed time to think and pray about my response. I hope you can do the same.”

Christmas was surprising good this year. I really wasn’t expecting much. Friday I got a lot of work done, then headed over to my house for some dinner. Andrew tried to speed things up by wrapping the turkey in foil. That didn’t work. It’s all good though, and in the end, everything tasted wonderful. We drank a lot of wine, cory, ale, luis and i. We all then headed over to the Fautsch’s for more dinner, and cigars. I had a blast! Headed back to the house to sleep. Christmas morning I talked on the phone with my special someone, and opened the gift she bought me over the phone. She’s been out of town for Christmas the be with her family. So her gift was by far my favorite. A little leather wallet for my passport. I am going on a cruise Jan 9-16th and didn’t have a holder for my passport. Now I do, and love it! :D That was the highlight of my day. Afterwards though I had a wonderful breakfast and time opening presents with my mother and andrew. Soon after, headed over the the Fautsch’s to enjoy the rest of my Christmas day with lots and lots of Mario Party!! I know, weird. It was sick how many hours of that game we played. It was very fun though. Enjoying though a lot of coffee, cheeses, chocolates, and wine, while playing. It was a great day in the end. :) I am very blessed and happy how everything turned out.

Friends are coming over now. Byes!

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